This is a “one-shot” poem from Feb. 2021 – I occasionally will go through the process of writing by way of stream of consciousness. No editing except formatting. It’s always interesting to run across them. Sometimes I need to hear what I was feeling. It’s always a bit stunning that you can forget something so deeply. Like, I wouldn’t have even known that I wrote this if I had stumbled across it unlabeled. It’s a pretty deep truth that struggles to stay surfaced. Working on not silencing myself everyday <3
Silencer
Words that pierced my heart
Early
Often
Always sung in melodic harmony
Transfixed
Transformed
Words that Voices Never Shared
No One Dared
Silenced
Like a haunted theme
Of deepest
Fear
Never shared never heard
No one
Listening
Screaming Wailing Reaching
Cried
Begged
Pounding on glass
Muted
Stifled
Finally realizing it was
Always me
Silencing
Always me
Silenced
The only one I needed
Hear me
See me
Heal me
It has always been
Me
